Back on Track

Okay so non-smoking is going okay. I have cheated once but that is fine. I had like four drags and it was awful. It really was and the thing is it didn`t make anything better or easier. Just made me feel like a loser for cheating (at the time I am now over it). The funny thing is that my mom gave me the smoke to cheat. Both of my parents have been trying to quit. They went to the hypnotist and are not doing too bad. Well my mom had cut down a tonne and my dad has been doing spectacular. He used to be like a pack and a half smoker a day and has not smoked for a month.

So my dear father has given me the encouragement to continue. And the fat I am feeling (okay I realize it is just water retention) has given me the motivation to get back on the weight watcher wagon. I ruined today (omg do you know hash brown casserole is like 9 points a serving, even it is made with the low fat crap) but that doesn`t mean that I am throwing the day away. It is a start of a new week tomorrow and I will make the most of it. I am throwing away the rest of the hash brown casserole, way to tempting.

I do have some dating news to report. I met someone new online and he doesn`t seem to be horrible. I know I gush. I don`t want to jinx anything by saying too much but he seems really nice and considerate. Plus if I really want to know all of his details, I have a some mutual friends but I don`t think I want to do that. I think I may want to find out the details for myself.

Moi

I Want a F&%king Smoke and I Want it NOW!!!

Okay so today is my first smoke free day. I am not a huge smoker to begin with (maybe 3 to 5 a day) which was even more reason to quit. I have quit before and do not want to be a smoker. Regardless of what my mind wants, my body wants a smoke right now. Quitting smoking is hard but I would like to proudly say that I didn't go off the deep end snaking today like I usually do when I quit.

I just want to run to the store buy a pack of smokes and have a wonderfully delicious (and disgusting) drag off of it. I actually mean run to the store - not bothering with the vehicle. Plus if I run I can walk back and smoke on the way (I could probably have like three smokes in that time). I want to but I won't. I will not subject my body to all that wonderfully awful crap anymore.

One bad thing about not smoking is that I was a tad bitchier than usual today. Thankfully my child is not here to endure my bitchiness (something I thought of before) but there were a couple of people at work who got it. Oh well, I will apologize tomorrow (or maybe next week) and blame it on the quitting as everyone lets a lot of stuff slide when people quit. I have taken the smokers dependency test on smokefree.gov and have a low dependence on cigarettes so hopefully the bitchiness will stop soon.

Let me know if anyone has any tips or tricks for quitting smoking.

Moi

**UPDATE - I have talked myself out of going to get more smoke. It has been 22 hours why would I screw that up know. I can do this I know I can!!